"sana hindi bumalik sa'yo ang lahat ng ginawa mo... tama nga ang sabi nila, masyado kang mataas..."

nakakagulat. mahirap tanggapin. ngunit, alam ko naman na wala akong ginawa. kung meron man, nakasisiguro akong para iyon sa kabutihan ng lahat. naniniwala ako na hindi mo puwedeng ipilit ang bagay na hindi naman talaga maaaring mangyari.

bakit kailangan mong maghintay kung wala ka namang hinihintay? at kung malaman mo ang katotohanan, ikagagalit mo ba 'yun dapat? sapat na sigurong ilang araw, linggo, buwan at taon ang nakalipas, at hanggang ngayon, hindi pa rin tayo nagtatagpo. walang maayos na usapan. walang maayos na pagtatapos. mas maigi na kaysa lumala pa. may masasabi ako. may sasabihin ka.

lalabas na hindi makatarungan. unfair. masyado akong mataas. ganun ako. wala kang magagawa. bato, sabi mo. mali man sa tingin mo, pinaninindigan ko. hindi mababago ng kahit na sino ang aking pananaw. ngunit paano naman ikaw? hindi ko na hawak ang kapalaran mo. ikaw mismo ang makakapagdikta sa ikot ng iyong buhay. hindi naman masamang magsimula ng panibago at harapin ang katotohanan. sige, kasalanan ko. pareho lang naman tayo...

ang buhay, hindi tumitigil dahil sa isang pagkakamali. ito ay nagbibigay ng oportunidad upang tanggapin ang pagkakamali at matuto mula rito nang ika'y makapagsimula. ang sakit ay unti-unting maghihilom. hindi mo na lang mapapansin, naglaho na lang bigla. ang galit, pag nanatili, nakakasama. kalimutan na ang lahat ng hindi magandang pangyayari sa buhay. buksan ang isipan. hindi ko hinihingi na unawain ang mga bagay na ito. sapagkat alam ko, kailanman, salungat ka ng pananaw ko.

hindi ginusto ng toro na makisama kay alakdan...

Current Mood: tired

i only have 2 terms left. i'm going to finish school. as in i'll never come back (depends if i'm gonna enter grad school?!@#) here's my subject for the 1st term of this school year.

Film Theory, Analysis & Appreciation
Thesis Writing & Defense
Law and Mass Media
Ethics of Communication
Photo Journalism
Broadcast Media Management

exciting. no minor subjects at all. i don't really like the schedlue coz i have to go to school 5 days a week for 6 subjects. just imagine how much would i spend instead of having those 6 subjects for 3 days. i think that would work. but i don't have any control of my sked. i think, all of us. it's the registrar who took charge of it; unlike last term, i can choose whatever slot i want to.

i've to go to school tomorrow. i don't feel like going but i have to. my mind's not yet conditioned. i'm not into thesis mode (others tell me i've to) i just want to sleep. i think it's not yet time for me to plan ahead for a career. it will come.

Current Mood: lazy

i've read an article in Bulatlat. disappointing. but it's the reality.

click this

Current Mood: crushed

i will return to sm mall of aisa five years from now... we went there. it was not fun. it was a disaster. lots of people. kinda chaotic. it's not a good place to unwind. not a good place to chill. i'm advising you to go there after five years. so you can appreciate it better...

the moment we set foot at sm mall of asia, we all have one thing in mind, we have to get out of here! we're 12. 5 kids. 6 adults. 1 kid at heart. it's the opening week so i understand if there were lots of people. we had no chance to explore the place. we'll just come back soon. so we called a taxi. and went home. to market! market! haha.. it's way better than striving so hard just to get in a shop, store, resto, etc. in sm mall of asia. i think the place is okay. but this is not the right time to go there. yes it's true. i've proven it.

by the way, i've already seen xmen3 last friday. its great. superb effects. but cheesy love story. you'll always see love angles in most films. so expect that in the movie. you just have to end the "end credits". why? see it for yourself.

Current Mood: distressed

i've been to the house of jay-r. yes, the so-called r&b prince. so what? i'm not bragging about it. i just don't have anything to say in this entry. it was just an assignment of the ad agency. i have to find someone that can take body measurements of jay-r to be sent to bangkok for a costume, for the shoot of a new colgate fresh confidence tvc. he'll be leaving (i bet he's in the plane right now) for the states so we have to get his measurements right away and fax it to the region office. so there. i asked my sister if she can provide me with someone who knows how to do it. fortunately, she knows an alterer in her dept. ok, we went there and what's really funny, my sister came with us before going to work. talk about crushing on him. she's a not a big fan but she likes him. i don't have "anything" on him. i don't hate/like him either. anyways, we had the chance to meet him. and it was like a swoosh. got it? i 'dont get it too. i mean, the meeting was like a lightning. fast. quick. can't remember what exactly happened. we don't have much business there at all that's why we sped off in his house just like that. he kept us waiting for about 30mins, but that's ok. i understand. showbiz. he's nice though. but his handler's not. he didn't even offered us a drink or anything. that was the encounter. i just like to call it that way.

Current Mood: calm

We want cha-cha, but we are paralyzed.
We plan more, but we achieve less.
We travel more, but we reach less.
We are the longest democracy in Asia,
But we are the longest autocracy in Asia.
We extol the virtues of human rights,
But we kill journalists and leftists.
We pride ourselves on being free,
But we refuse to believe that the truth shall make us free.
We have managed to reach the top of Mt. Everest.
When will we reach the foot of Mendiola Bridge?

excerpt from Conrado de Quiros' column in PDI, May 24,'06


Client na namin ang Jollibee, we were advised to stay away from McDonalds. Uh oh! Goodbye Meal # 5...

i'm hungry right, but i know i'm already full, don't know, i've cravings, but i don't want to eat, sheesh, weight issues huh! (shout out to neah) i think i'm fat but others don't, i know i am, but i don't want to be skinny, i like my built, but still not contented, can't determine what i really like, just end this crap...

Current Mood: hungry

nabibingi na ko sa pagsakay sa elevator. pakiramdam ko rin hindi ako natutunawan sa kinain ko. wala pa atang five minutes ng naubos ko ang aking lunch. ganun ba talaga pag nasa makati ka. fast-paced ang lahat ng bagay? ultimo pagkain? ewan.

sa ilalim ng nagniningning na mga bituin

Current Mood: blah

gumising. naligo. nagtoothbrush. nagbihis. nagsuklay. lumabas ng bahay. sumakay ng jeep na may signboard na pasig palengke. bumaba ng ayala terminal sa taguig. tumayo ng trenta minutos sa paghihintay ng masasakyang fx. nagbayad ng trenta. sumakay sa fx. umidlip. gumising. bumaba ng salcedo. naglakad. bumaba ng underpass. sumakay ng escalator. pumasok sa rcbc plaza. pumasok sa elevator. pinindot ang 20. bumaba ng 20th floor. pumasok sa y&r. pumunta ng desk. umupo. nagbasa ng broadsheet. tumayo. kumuha ng tubig sa pantry. bumalik sa desk. umupo. nagsulat ng historical analysis. tumayo. naggupit ng post-it. naglabel ng presentation sa adboard. tumayo. nagcut-out ng cometitive print ad. pumunta ng i.t. kinuha ang laptop sa i.t. bumalik sa desk. sinet-up ang laptop. umupo. nagplayback ng TVCs. nagencode ng historical analysis. tumayo. lumabas ng y&r para maglunch. sumakay ng elevator. pinindot ang G. lumabas ng elevator. sumakay ulit ng elevator. pinindot ang 5. lumabas ng elevator. pumila sa cafeteria. hinanap sila cecille. umupo sa table ng mga kaibigan ko sa undp. kumain. uminom. tumayo. sumakay ng elevator. bumaba. sumakay ulit. at lumabas. pumasok ng y&r. pumunta sa desk. pinagpatuloy ang analysis. tumayo. pumunta ng creative. kumatok sa pinto ng audio and dubbing department. kumuha ng historical reel ng posh. bumalik sa desk, nagplayback. tumayo. bumalik sa aduio and dubbing dept. binalik and dvd. bumalik ng desk. pinagpatuloy ang madugong analysis. naginternet. malas. walang connection. bumalik sa analysis. tumayo. pumunta ng pantry. nagtimpla ng kape. bumalik sa desk. natapos sa analysis. nireview. palipas oras. nakipagkuwentuhan tungkol sa da vinci code. alas siyete na. lumabas ng y&r. sumakay ng elevator. bumaba, lumabas ng rcbc plaza. bumaba sa underpass. naglakad. pumanik. sumakay ng jeep papuntang market2x terminal. nagbayad. bumaba. sumakay ng jeep papuntang market2. nagbayad. bumaba ng market2x. pumasok ng market2x. tumungo sa 3rd floor. pumasok sa ace hardware. bumili ng phone cable at bumbilya. nagpunta ng dept store. bumili ng rubber slippers. lumabas ng market2x. sumakay ng fx pauwi. angbayad. bumaba. pumasok ng gate ng bahay. kumatok. pumasok sa bahay. nagbihis ng pambahay. kuamin ng hapunan. uminom. kumain ng butter scotch. uminom. tumayo. nagbukas ng pc. nagconnect sa internet. katext si david. nagupdate ng journal. so there...

Current Mood: groggy

ganun ako. ewan. bakit hindi ako makapagupdate. nakakatamad. oo. pero para bang hinihingi ng sistema ko na kailangan ko talagang magupdate ng blog. o ayan. eto na. naguupdate na ko. paalam...

Current Mood: bored